We celebrate Thanksgiving in the United States on Thursday, and you may have seen the 30 days of gratitude meme on social media this month. I decided to share my gratitude in one post, and focus on aspects of my life with CFS. So here goes: 30 things I am grateful for in my CFS life.
- To say I am grateful for my husband is so inadequate. We met only two months before I got sick, and he has stayed with me through it all. I don’t think I would have made it this far without his support. I am blessed.
- I am grateful that I was diagnosed after only 6 months of illness. Most people with CFS are not diagnosed at all, and even those who are diagnosed often spend years going from doctor to doctor before finding one knowledgeable enough. Early diagnosis made such a difference in my life because it confirmed for me that I was not crazy and made it possible to pursue disability benefits.
- I am so grateful that I made the investment this year to have exercise testing. It was terribly hard, but I learned some very valuable information, and it is changing how I cope with the illness.
- I work with only a few healthcare providers, but they all believe in CFS. When I have needed to consult a new doctor, I’ve always dreaded the CFS part of the conversation because I don’t want to deal with the dismissal and disbelief that are so common. So far, I have been very fortunate.
- Some days it is hard to remember, but I am very grateful that I am not more disabled and ill than I am. There are patients who cannot get out of bed at all, or who deal with more severe symptoms than me in many ways. I am grateful for the capacity I have, even though that changes day to day.
- Despite the slow pace of getting treatments and diagnostic markers for CFS, there are many researchers working on this disease. I am grateful to every single one of them, and have had the privilege of thanking some of them in person.
- I am extremely fortunate to have disability benefits, and I am grateful to the attorneys who have helped me with that. Without those benefits, I would have spent the early years of my illness living with my parents. Things have not always been easy financially, but without my benefits it would have been much harder. I wish I didn’t need them, as I would much rather work, but I am grateful that safety net is there.
- I am grateful to the doctors around the country who specialize in treating CFS patients. I have met only a few of them, but they are some of the most compassionate people I know. In more than one meeting, I have seen clinicians check on the patients in the room (including me) and try to help them. Most of us cannot see these specialists on a regular basis, but they help us all through their participation in research and in building a clinical knowledge base.
- I am grateful for the understanding and support of my family. So many patients must contend with disbelief from spouses, parents, children and other relatives. My family gets it. Actually, it’s pretty funny to be at a family gathering and listen to the chorus of voices telling me to sit down when my heart rate monitor starts beeping.
- I am deeply grateful to all the patients who advocate on CFS issues. I know how hard it is to do this while being sick. I have seen the toll it takes on people, and appreciate the sacrifices they make to help advance the cause. I cannot list everyone here (although that is a list that should be compiled), so I’ll give a global shout out to all of you.
- I am grateful for my house. Many patients have to rely on family or are homeless because they cannot work and support themselves. Having a house gives me the luxury of space, a yard, and solitude – all of which help me cope with this illness that keeps me housebound.
- As much as I hate it sometimes, I am grateful for my heart rate monitor. It gives me immediate feedback and warns me when I am pushing too hard. I hate the message, not the messenger.
- I am grateful for my friends. I met some through my husband, some through the patient community. Some of them I know only from phone calls, email or Twitter. There is no substitute for the support of good friends, and the way they make me laugh is good medicine.
- I am grateful for the internet. It is hard to imagine how isolated I would be without email, Twitter, or Facebook.
- My brain does not work as well or as long as it used to, but I am grateful that I’ve retained enough cognitive function to write this blog, to read scientific papers, and to participate in advocacy. I wish I could do this 10 hours a day or more like I used to, but something is better than nothing.
- I am grateful for my dog, Grif. He is my constant companion, and makes me laugh every day. He forgives me for not being able to take him for walks, and will play fetch even when I have to throw the toy from bed.
- I am grateful for Laura Hillenbrand. She has proven it is possible to write great books despite being severely ill with CFS. She is one of my role models (and is also funny as hell).
- I am grateful for my wheelchair. Without it, I could not travel or go to the movies (or a concert). I don’t do those things often, but I would not have the option at all without that wheelchair.
- There are healthy people who have stepped up to the plate and are advocating on behalf of CFS patients. I am deeply grateful every day for their commitment, engagement and service. I have had the privilege of working with some of them, so a special shout out to Mary Dimmock, Denise Lopez-Majano, Kim McCleary and Suzanne Vernon.
- Sometimes, I’m grateful to drink a cup of hot tea and watch the birds outside. I am not the kind of person who slips into quiet moments with mindfulness and ease, but I am grateful when I can.
- To all the healthy caregivers, including my own, thank you. I know parents and spouses of CFS patients who could knock your socks off with the depth of their love and determination.
- I am grateful for the new friend I made this year. She routinely emails and says “I’m going to the store. Send me your list.” She is a constant source of support and humor, and has a mean brownie recipe.
- I know I am critical of the CFS Advisory Committee, but I am grateful the Committee exists and especially grateful to everyone who serves on that Committee. The public policy arena of CFS would be a barren and desolate place without that Committee as a vehicle for information and recommendations.
- I have a few friends from “before” who have stuck with me. They are fierce. It takes a special person to stick with a friend even when her whole life and outlook changes. I am eternally grateful to these women.
- I am grateful for the open access science movement. I need to be able to read research papers myself, and it is so frustrating when a paper I need is behind a paywall. I appreciate everyone who tries to make science more available to people like me who do not have access to a science library.
- I am grateful for my house cleaners, and grateful that I can afford house cleaners. Clutter and mess and dirt drive me completely nuts, and I’m lucky to be able to foist part of that work onto other people.
- I am thankful for my health insurance. Without it, I don’t know how we would manage to pay for the healthcare I need.
- I am grateful for the pain medications that keep my pain under control most of the time. We have spent years trying to find the right combination of medications that I can tolerate and that provide enough relief to keep my pain bearable.
- I am grateful that I learned how to knit and that most days I am able to do it. People joke that they knit so they don’t kill people, but I have found that knitting really does help me manage my pain and frustration, and relieves my boredom.
- I am so grateful for my local library, and especially the online request system. If the book is in our county library system, I can get it without ever having to leave the house.
- BONUS: When I started this blog, I wasn’t sure if anyone would read it. But here you are, and I am grateful to all of you. I appreciate all of your comments and emails. I appreciate that you share my posts on Twitter and Facebook, or link to my posts from your own blogs. I’ll try to keep writing things that are interesting to you or speak to you in some way.
Puzzle Pieces
Let’s play a game. Imagine you have a large puzzle that makes an Impressionist picture of a colorful cottage-style garden. You can put it together as long as you have the picture on the box. First you assemble the lower left corner, all lavender and yellow flowers. Another section of red roses sits somewhere in the middle. Near the upper right corner is a section of white and gray paving stones, and you also put together an area of green herbs although you are not sure where it goes yet. This puzzle will take a lot of time to solve, but with the finished image on the box you know that you’ll put it together eventually.
Now imagine the box is gone. All you have is a white/gray blob, and lavender/yellow section, the red rose section and another green blob. The rest of the pieces are all mixed up together, and while you can separate out some edge pieces and consolidate others by color, without the box you cannot even be certain what the final picture should look like. It’s frustrating, isn’t it, to have all those pieces on the table and not see how it fits together or even know for certain that you have all the pieces. That’s the feeling I got reading the American Family Physician’s article on Chronic Fatigue Syndrome: Diagnosis and Treatment. I dissected the AAFP patient information sheet on CFS in a recent post, but now I think it’s important to examine this review article by the same authors. The article attempts to present a finished picture of CFS for family practitioners, but so many pieces are missing that the paper bears little resemblance to the CFS I live with.
Generally Speaking
“Chronic Fatigue Syndrome: Diagnosis and Treatment” by Dr. Joseph Yancey and Dr. Sarah Thomas gives an overview of CFS for family physicians. They review the Oxford and Fukuda criteria, the basic lab workup recommended by CDC, and a list of exclusionary conditions. In a section on etiology of CFS, the authors quickly cover the immune system, genetics, psychosocial, adrenal system, and sleep/nutrition. Finally, the treatment section focuses on cognitive behavioral therapy (they say it works), graded exercise therapy (this works too), nonpharmacological (nothing really helps) and pharmacological treatments (these don’t work either).
In the authors’ defense, there are significant space limitations in the American Family Practitioner journal: 1,500 to 1,800 words in the case of clinical review articles like this one. There is no way to include all the information about CFS that family doctors need in such a limited space. It also appears that neither Yancey nor Thomas are CFS experts, based on the very limited information I could find online. I emailed Dr. Yancey, the corresponding author for the paper, on October 24th with a few questions but to date I have not received a response.
Method Madness
Drs. Yancey and Thomas describe their research methods as follows:
This methodology accounts for some of the missing pieces. First, anything published after August 26, 2011 was not captured in the search. That includes the IACFS/ME Primer, NCI’s paper on the risk of cancer among elderly CFS patients, the ME-ICC criteria, and the Rituximab trial. But before we forgive the authors’ oversight of these papers based on the date of their literature search, consider a curiosity I found in the paper references. The authors cite one paper published after August 26, 2011: The FITNET trial of internet based CBT for adolescents with CFS is included as reference Number 27. Does that strike you as odd? If the authors truly limited themselves to the references found on August 26, 2011 then this paper should not be included. Furthermore, of all the papers published after August 2011 to include in a review of CFS treatment and diagnosis, why was a CBT paper the one cherry-picked by the authors?
Even within the boundaries of the search methodology, the authors missed some papers that would have been helpful in their overview sketch of CFS. I attempted to recreate the authors’ search in PubMed, and found more than 1,300 clinical study papers alone. These include all of the letters critical of the PACE study and Tom Kindlon’s many letters and papers on the potential harms and inaccuracies in CBT/GET studies. Other important papers such as the spinal fluid proteome by Schutzer, et al., the differential gene expression post-exercise paper from Light, et al., and the cytokine network modeling by Broderick, et al. were captured in the PubMed search but did not make it into this review paper.
Finally, there are several seminal papers that are not returned in the PubMed search. The Journal of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome published the Canadian Consensus Criteria by Caruthers, et al., in 2003. This case definition is gaining broad acceptance among policy makers and researchers, but it does not show up in a PubMed search because the journal was never indexed in Medline. Another example is the Van Ness, et al. study showing the significance of two-day exercise testing in differentiating CFS patients from controls. This is a critical paper, suggesting a possible diagnostic test (albeit an extremely unpleasant one) for CFS. But because the journal was never indexed, these papers do not show up in a PubMed search and so non-experts like Yancey and Thomas never see them.
Cognitive Bias
I do not know what Dr. Yancey and Dr. Thomas believe about CFS, including whether they believe the illness is primarily psychological in origin. After reading this paper, however, I fear this may be the case. I can best illustrate this through examples.
In the opening paragraph of the article, the authors say “CFS is often mentally and emotionally debilitating, and persons with this diagnosis are twice as likely to be unemployed as persons with fatigue who do not meet formal criteria for CFS.” What about physically debilitating? If the authors recognized the physical disability experienced by many CFS patients, and the physical suffering of all of us, wouldn’t they mention it in this paragraph? This simple omission is a very subtle way to communicate that people with CFS are not physically ill.
There is a brief discussion of the case definition in the paper. According to the authors, the 1988 CDC definition focused on physical symptoms, and the 1991 Oxford definition “emphasize mental fatigue over physical symptoms.” But the criteria, printed as Table 1 in the article, require fatigue to be “severe, disabling, and affects physical and mental functioning.” I’m no fan of the Oxford definition, but even I can see the requirement of physical disability. Again, Yancey and Thomas gloss right over the fact that CFS has serious, physical symptoms.
In discussing the biopsychosocial model of CFS etiology, the authors say: “CFS is often associated with depression, which has led many physicians to believe that CFS is a purely psychosomatic illness. Evidence supporting this conclusion is lacking.” Fair enough. But then they say, “Strong evidence suggests that childhood trauma increases the risk of CFS by as much as sixfold.” Sigh. I covered this in my dissection of the patient information sheet. Childhood trauma may have physical systemic affects, but I am not aware of any evidence showing that CFS patients have higher rates of trauma compared to patients with other illnesses like MS or lupus or diabetes or cancer. In my opinion, it is misleading to single out childhood trauma as a risk factor for CFS in the absence of such evidence.
The authors devote space and attention to CBT and GET studies, and this is understandable given the fact that CBT and GET treatments have received the most study in CFS. CBT “can help persons with CFS recognize how their fears of activity lead to behaviors that ultimately cause them to feel more fatigued and disabled.” It is true that CBT can help patients correct activity avoidance behavior, but in my experience this is a very small minority of patients. Even the CDC, target of so much criticism, does not describe CBT this way. The CDC says: “CBT can be useful by helping them pace themselves and avoid the push-crash cycle in which a person does too much, crashes, rests, starts to feel a little better, and then does too much once again.” This is a more appropriate description of CBT that acknowledges the importance of self-management and the prevalence of the push-crash cycle, as opposed to the activity avoidance highlighted by Yancey and Thomas.
Graded exercise therapy is very controversial for CFS patients, mainly because traditional GET uses a scheduled increase process as opposed to a patient-driven increase process based on symptoms. Not surprisingly, this issue is not discussed in the paper. The authors do mention that a heart rate monitor can be used to avoid overexertion during exercise, but there is no mention of the body of evidence on CFS exercise testing and pacing methods. They even cite a study that suggests improvements in GET do not correlate with increases in exercise capacity, suggesting that GET may actually work by “decreasing symptom-focusing behavior in persons with CFS.” Pacing, the only behavioral technique that truly helps CFS patients, is not mentioned by name, although the authors do say:
Neither CBT nor GET is curative because it does not target the underlying mechanism of illness. CBT is not curative for cancer or heart disease either, for the same reason. Drawing the conclusion that these therapies are not curative because of the patient is a fallacy, but this is the conclusion that Yancey and Thomas suggest:
The study cited by the authors in support of these statements is this one from 2002. That study points out its own limitations: it uses the Oxford definition, lost 17% of the patients to follow-up, and did not actually measure the exercise capacity of the patients. But this is the kind of evidence that is sufficient for Yancey and Thomas.
The overall tone, selective quotation, and reference choices give me the impression that the authors believe CFS to be a psychological condition, at least in part. I do not know this for a fact, but if I read only this article about CFS and nothing else, I would believe that it is an emotional problem. It’s not just the amount of space devoted to the psychosocial research. The authors focus on the psychological elements to the exclusion of discussion of physical disability, post-exertional malaise, and the well-documented physiological findings in this illness.
Missing Pieces
There are huge gaps in this paper. Orthostatic intolerance, an issue for most CFS patients, is not mentioned at all. Post-exertional malaise is not explained, and no CFS exercise studies are referenced. The importance of medications and other treatments in managing sleep and pain issues is ignored, and pain is barely discussed at all.
This article illustrates a few pieces of the puzzle, mainly CBT, GET and the psychosocial model of CFS. A family physician reading only this article would not be able to separate chronic fatigue from CFS patients, and would understand almost nothing about the complexity of CFS. I found the tone to be generally hopeless: try therapy and exercise but it probably won’t help you much. Maybe a motivated physician would visit the CDC website (and this illustrates the importance of fixing problems in those materials).
No one will be able to assemble the CFS puzzle using the pieces in this article. Too much evidence is ignored, too much emphasis is placed on the psychosocial pieces, and there is very little information about how to manage the other symptoms of the illness. I know the full picture exists and I can identify the gaps. But a family physician who does not have the picture of the box will not recognize all that is missing and will never be able to assemble the pieces in a way that will help CFS patients.
I fear that doctors will rely on this article to provide the same kind of advice I received from doctors in 1994: keep going to the gym, staying in bed is the worst thing you can do, get some counseling, there is nothing else we can do to help you. This bad advice and hopelessness did not help me, and may have even hurt me by keeping me much more active than my body could tolerate. It was years before I found and received adequate care for pain, sleep, and orthostatic intolerance, and even more years before I found expert help for pacing and activity management. This article will do nothing to change the way doctors treat CFS, and will reinforce the destructive pattern already in place.